Our Little Family: Goodbye Dad

My dad passed away last week after battling cancer for over 2 years. It was really hard watching him grow weaker and weaker over the last little while. I'm truly thankful that I could be there to help when I could, even though I didn't do much. I felt honored to serve him. Towards the end, we just prayed that his suffering would be over. Finally the time came and it was still a blow to all of us, even though we knew it was coming. Death feels so final and permanent! We had some special, sacred time with him as a family at the end that I will always remember. I will also always remember some heart-wrenching moments

We just had his funeral and everything went really well. Many cousins, aunts, uncles, other relatives and friends came both to the viewing the night before and the services. I appreciate all the effort made by so many to be there. It was really good to visit with family I don't see very often. The talks and music were comforting and a good tribute to Dad. My uncle Doyle said Dad was a "master machinist" and I didn't realized he was that good.

My parents' ward has done SO much for my mom! They've been amazing. Some neighbors put flags in the yards of all the houses along their street. They collected money and gave it to my mom so she could buy something to plant in Dad's honor. They provided a wonderful luncheon. They have just loved and looked after them the whole time they've been there, which really isn't very long.

I appreciate my friends and family from Nathan's side who have reached out to comfort me and Nathan during this time. It's a hard time. After the funeral I felt so drained. I heard my mom describe the day as a "dark day." Saying goodbye to Dad is heartbreaking. Seeing my mom suffering and in anguish is torture.

But I do know that Dad lives on! I know he is free from the pain he bore for so long. I know he is with loved ones who have died. I know that because of Christ's Atonement, the bitter sting of death is gone! I know I will see my dad again. I know there is more to our existence that just this life on earth. It is such a comfort. Having Dad gone is still painful and he will be sorely missed, but the separation isn't permanent and it isn't final!

Dad lived a good, full life. He served the Lord faithfully through his life, even to the very end. He was a devoted husband and father and his family was always a priority. He worked hard all his life and found satisfaction in his work. He left a legacy to his 9 children, 5 sons- and daughters-in-law, 25 grandchildren, and 23 great-grandchildren that will forever bless our lives. It's amazing to consider the influence of one good man.

I'm so grateful that I've had his influence in my life. I hope I can honor him by the life I live and by how I teach my child. I love you, Dad.