So disappointed...

I learned this week that the adoption agency I had prayed about and felt good about using is not accepting new applications right now. Sometimes I just don't understand!! Maybe that will lead us to the next step we need to take toward finding a child for our family. It's hard to know what the next step should be, though! This path to adoption sure has its ups and downs. Sometimes I feel so full assured that we will be blessed to adopt a child and it feels so real and so close, like it really will happen. Other times it seems so utterly hopeless and futile to even keep trying knowing so many other families are hoping and praying for the same thing and that there are fewer and fewer girls choosing to place their babies for adoption. I know the Lord can work miracles and I know they happen in His time and not mine. I have seen it before in my life. But the waiting and hoping and not knowing how things will turn out and not knowing if you're even heading in the right direction are really tough. But I also know, you have to keep hanging on (and an occasional pity party is okay :)